My little sweeties

My little sweeties

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

All Good stuff!

Friday was good. I have been decompressing over the last few days from the extreme state of anxiety I was in, but all is good.

The job interview on Thursday was fine. I'll find out in a few weeks what the decision is. It's kinda nice to not care one way or the other. The extra money would be nice, but it isn't necessary and it certainly isn't the most exciting job in the world. It is a job testing software for the State's Office of Child Development and Early Learning. I'd be finding bugs, creating change requests and testing the requests to see if they work. It isn't terribly exciting, but wouldn't be too awful either and the pay is great!

Friday's ultrasound was perfect. Our little pilgrim is growing right on schedule. The tech wasn't the nicest-she made me wait until she was all done taking her measurements before she let me know if my baby was alive or not. I"m sure baby's heart rate was as high as it was (175) because mine was through the roof, but all is good.

Next ultrasound is our NT scan on May 4. I can't wait! Before that we get to hear the heart beat at my OB appointment on the 26th. I hope I have no reason to go in before then. Thanks for all the well wishes.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Lots of fun stuff coming up...

Tomorrow I have a job interview. I guess this is a good thing. I am not crazy about the idea of working at another mundane, boring, mind numbing, pointless job, but the money is very, very good for the work I will have to do, so if the interview goes well, I guess I will take it. It will hopefully be pretty temporary anyway.

Friday we get another ultrasound to follow up on our scare two weeks ago. I am scared to death that it will not go well. Our loss last time was confirmed at 8wks, 6days. I will be nine weeks on Friday. I've lost a few symptoms over the last day or two and that makes me very scared. I have not had any more bleeding. I have had the occasional cramp, but nothing abnormal, but I still can't shake the fear.

I can't plan beyond Friday. I feel like the rest of my life is hanging on what happens at 3 o'clock Friday afternoon. Will that ultrasound show a growing baby with a nice fast heartbeat, or nothing? I am being as positive as I can allow myself to be.